I remember / je me souviens
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For those limbic bursts of nostalgia, invented by Proust, miniaturized by Nicholson Baker, and freeze-dried by Joe Brainard in his I remember and by Georges Perec in his Je me souviens.

But there are no fractions, the world is an integer
Like us, and like us it can neither stand wholly apart nor disappear.
When one is young it seems like a very strange and safe place,
But now that I have changed it feels merely odd, cold
And full of interest.
          --John Ashbery, "A Wave"

Sometimes I sense that to put real confidence in my memory I have to get to the end of all rememberings. That seems to say that I forego remembering. And now that strikes me as an accurate description of what it is to have confidence in one's memory.
          --Stanley Cavell, The Claim of Reason


Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I remember running into the prayer room for a few seconds before rushing out to school. My mother would remind me ever so often, but after some time (4th or 5th grade?), she didn't have to. It had become an unavoidable part of the morning routine, an activity that didn't need a lot of thought or dedication or emotion or reluctance; like brushing teeth, it was just something that had to be done. A vague discomfiture would manage to linger through the day when it wasn't. I remembered this the past two mornings, not fully awake, about to get out into the crisp eastern light, cloudy sky, and hint of fog, like winter at home (well, everything except the temperature and snow, that is), feeling the tiniest compulsion to pop into a little room (the one that doesn't exist in here) and pray -- and pausing the tiniest bit as I put on my shoes, like I would sometimes, because: have I prayed or not? if I haven't, I'll have to take my shoes off, and I'm late already, or perhaps I can just pray from outside the door wearing the shoes, but I really may as well pray now before I put my shoes on, even if it's the second time.


posted by sravana 11:47 PM
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I love this post, Sravana.
 

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